Big Brother 19 is definitely off to a rocky start. Cameron was evicted on the first night, and in a rare chain of events, HG Megan Lowder left the game during the episode shown on Sunday night due to what was called an “urgent personal matter.”
The 28-year-old dog walker and former Navy interrogator walked out of the house without informing her fellow HGs. After getting into a huge fight with several other HGs, she went into the diary room and never came back.
At the time of her exit, Megan did not go into detail about why she was leaving the game, but she has since opened up.
In an interview with The Desert Sun, Megan revealed that when she was stationed in Norfolk, Virginia, she was the victim of a sexual assault and has severe PTSD from that traumatic event. In the “Big Brother 19” house, being yelled at by large guys like Josh, Cody and Mark triggered her PTSD, giving her a panic attack, causing her to throw up and ultimately leading to her leaving the game.
“So in the house… I had a lot of guys yelling at me and attacking me and it started really affecting me and making my anxiety severe and I was starting to get physically ill,” she told The Desert Sun. “I was throwing up, I had diarrhea, I was nauseous all the time.”
After leaving the house, Megan spent several days in the hospital before being released to her friends and family. Megan says it was a mutual decision between her and the producers that she would not return to the house.
In the interview, Megan also commented on the rumored reason for her leaving based on what the HGs have been saying on the live feeds. Megan claims that she overheard Jessica refer to Alex as a “Panda,” which she took as a derogatory slur about Alex being Asian. Megan says she may have misheard, but she reported it back to Alex and that led to a big fight with Alex, Jessica and Cody.
Megan says she was already talking to the producers about leaving before that incident, but her ensuing panic attack made it clear that leaving was the correct decision for her.
“It was my own issues that led to everything, it wasn’t anyone else’s fault,” she said. “Without my stuff going on I probably could have handled things very, very differently and been fine but I just couldn’t.”
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