By Holly Rasmussen
Four months after her husband Josh was exposed as an adulterer, Anna Duggar is finally speaking out on the scandal(s) that rocked her family. On the first installment of Jill & Jessa: Counting On, we got to hear a sentence or two from Anna, but it appears that this weekend’s episode will include Anna’s full story.
In a new clip for the episode, which airs on Sunday night, Anna talks about how hard life has been for her over the past few months.
“It was definitely a hard thing,” she says. “I think it is such a betrayal for a spouse to go through what we’re walking through.”
Of course, she’s referring to finding out in August that her husband Josh had been cheating on her. News broke that Josh had an account on the cheating website Ashley Madison.com and eventually Josh admitted to being unfaithful to Anna—and to having an addiction to p*rnography.
During last week’s episode, the show’s producers kept prodding Jill, Jessa, and several other Duggar kids to talk about how their lives have changed “in the last four months.” Finally, they brought Anna in to talk but the scene cut right before she could began speaking her piece.
In the newly released clip of this week’s episode, the mother of four held back tears as she discussed how being in the public eye puts even more pressure on her.
“It was hard to realize that it was such a public thing, and so, not only was it a betrayal against me, but it was also a betrayal for those who call themselves a Christian,” Anna says. “Here we were as a Christian couple, and everyone was able to see us get married and to vow before God to be loyal to each other and that loyalty was broken.”
Josh famously worked for a The Family Research Council which supported “traditional family values.” He resigned in May after it was discovered that Josh had molested five young girls while in his teens.
There has been much speculation about whether Anna will stay with Josh or divorce him. She has made no announcements on that, but she has visited him twice at the rehab center he is in for his “pornography addiction” in recent weeks.
“How could this happen in our marriage?” Anna asks,while holding back tears. “Josh is my first love. He’s my one and only.”
Anna said she turned to her faith to get her through the ordeal, which obviously made her very angry.
“I knew if I went off of what I was feeling, I would turn a mess into a disaster,” she said.
Josh’s sister, Jinger, also appears in the clip to tell us how “amazing” Anna is. Jinger said Anna models unconditional love for them and that she’s “walking through this better than any of us could have imagined.”
It sure sounds like Anna’s planning to stay with Josh after he completes rehab. She has no education, no work history, and four mouths to feed, so the prospect of leaving her husband is surely quite scary for her.
The next episode will air Sunday night on TLC. Watch the preview clip of Anna’s interview below.