After her ‘Secret Lives of Mormon Wives’ costars proved last week that MomTok can survive in her absence, Taylor Frankie Paul is backtracking on some of her recent actions and admitting her “wrongdoings in the MomTok mess.”
On Sunday, the chronically online mom of three posted a lengthy statement to Instagram, along with a photo of herself that appeared to have been taken after she’d been crying (as you do). In the post, Taylor told followers she had just taken her “usual drive and cried for hours,” during which she “let [her]self feel all the feelings.”
“It’s time to stop letting ego, anger, and fear run the show,” Taylor wrote. “I’m in a lot of pain acting in defense with the amount of trials happening at once. I had to get recentered to allow the pain in.”
As The Ashley told you last week, Taylor’s ‘Mormon Wives’ costars– Whitney Leavitt, Mikayla Matthews, Layla Taylor, Miranda Hope, Jessi Draper, Mayci Neeley and Jen Affleck– reunited recently to resume filming for Season 5 of the Hulu reality series after it was paused in March due to an incident between Taylor and her ex-boyfriend/(second) baby daddy, Dakota Mortensen, which spurred a domestic assault investigation into the exes.
During a Taylor-free cast meetup last week, MomTok filmed an Instagram Reel in which the group was seen dancing and laughing under an on-screen caption that read “we’re surviving”– a message that wasn’t very well-received by Taylor.
While Taylor also resumed her filming obligations for the show last week, she reportedly only filmed footage that will be used for the Season 5 intro credits and is not expected to film anything else. She did, however, go on to post a clap-back video within hours after the “we’re surviving” video was posted by MomTok, with Taylor’s video listing the many alleged solo business opportunities she’s been offered, which only perpetuated posts from her former pals.
In her new post to Instagram, Taylor then went on to seemingly take accountability for her part in the recent drama between herself and her ‘Mormon Wives’ castmates, insisting that she’ll “be the first to admit [her] wrongdoings in the MomTok mess.”
“We’re at each other’s throats and I’m removing myself from responding to any of it moving forward,” she continued.
“I’ve never discredited them,” Taylor continued. “I’ve always supported all of them in their success; I’ve had their backs in times of need. I became defensive and let my ego take over when I heard …what I heard. I never felt so betrayed and abandoned by so many people I would have stood by no matter how exhausted.”
Taylor went on to claim that she’s also been targeted by “others that came out of left field.”
“That being said they all have their reasons and every right to draw boundaries and speak their minds too without being bullied,” she wrote. “None of us deserve that. No matter what happened it doesn’t justify MY response to all of it. That’s on me. I can only control me.
“I recognize I’m not myself and that hurts to admit,” Taylor continued. “There has been damage done to [my] brain and it’s my responsibility to retrain and rewire it. And we’re working on it. I know who I am and this is not it.”
Aside from the ongoing “MomTok mess,” Taylor remains in a messy custody battle with Dakota, the father of her two-year-old son Ever, as well as her ex-husband, Tate Paul, the father of her two older children. In her post on Sunday, Taylor hinted at the custody drama she’s currently dealing with, telling fans she missed her babies “so much.”
“ … I can’t even walk down the hall to their rooms, it’s so painful,” she wrote. “My heart is broken, I feel at war, I’m afraid of who I can trust and just wanted to share reality of how I feel. I don’t want to feel animosity I want to feel abundance.”
Taylor’s post received some support from her co-stars Marciano Brunette and Jessi Draper (who has stood by TFP throughout all of her drama this year.)
“Yes,” Jessi wrote. “This is the Taylor I’ve been fighting for. You will get through this and I know the comeback will be bigger and better than ever! You’ve got this.”
(As The Ashley previously reported, Jessi recently defended being part of the “We’re Surviving” video and confirmed to fans she was still Team Taylor, writing, “We’re currently filming right now. There is a group of us together, we do not choose who comes to these things and who doesn’t…I have been very public in my support of Taylor. I still support Taylor, she knows that [and] I talk to her every single day. Still friends with her, still love her.”)
“YOU’VE GOT THIS TAYLOR!” commented Marciano.
She also got encouragement from her mom, Liann May.
“Amazing Tay. I’m so happy you can recognize it!” she wrote. “We all need to have LOVE in our hearts! Fear & anger sometimes changes that. Nobody is perfect and each new day is a chance to change our direction. You’re not alone, and I’m I promise you you’ll get your kids back soon! [Love] you!”
(Photos: Instagram; Hulu)
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this is what she always does and her cult followers eat it up everytime, she acknowledges what she’s been doing is wrong and claims she understands the other moms, just so she can be in their and everyone else’s good graces, people won’t be impressed and show compassion again until she shows permanent change
also no disrespect to the ashley, but do we really need to hear marciano’s input?
Yes she misses her babies so much that she only used 58.5 hours out of a possible 149.5 hours of court ordered parenting time. But let’s take some more crying selfies and play the victim. She is an expert at it.
While I agree with what you’re saying, I’ll play devils advocate for a moment and say that unless she’s in the headspace to properly parent her children, I would much prefer she only use 1/3 of her parenting time. If she’s having manic episodes and/or constantly crying or online, I’d rather her recognize that she’s not in the headspace to have her children and let them stay with their fathers as to not expose them to any more trauma than she already has. If the 1/3 of time she’s used has actually been quality time, I’d prefer quality over quantity, if that makes sense.
I don’t disagree with you at all. There have been reports of her going on trips instead of picking up her kids. I have a hard time believing that she is self aware enough to realize her instability and make a decision not to see her kids for their benefit. It would be amazing if she got that insight though.