Teen Mom 2 star Leah Messer‘s upcoming memoir, Hope, Grace & Faith, has yet to be released; however, a number of the shocking topics addressed in the book have already been revealed. The latest: Leah’s confession that she once claimed to have miscarried with ex Jeremy Calvert‘s baby when she actually had an abortion.
In the book—which The Sun obtained an excerpt of—Leah writes that, at the time of the incident, she wasn’t over her first husband Corey Simms, even though she was already dating Jeremy. Leah was trying to decide between a life with Jeremy and a re-do with Corey when she found herself knocked up again, but this time with Jeremy’s child!
The Ashley has talked to someone who was associated with ‘Teen Mom 2’ around the time of the faked miscarriage to get the behind-the-scenes scoop!
In her book, Leah explained that she was upset that the unplanned pregnancy with Jeremy would prevent her from trying again with Corey.
“I was devastated,” she writes. “Having a baby with Jeremy would be the end of any chance Corey and I had of making things work for our family. I was sad for myself, but mostly I was sad for our girls. I knew I had f**ked up and I felt like I had ruined their lives on top of mine.”
Leah goes on to write that she was encouraged to terminate the pregnancy by her rep at the time, in hopes of saving Leah’s “public image.” Leah writes that her mom Dawn Spears was supportive of the decision, but insisted that Jeremy could not find out about the abortion.
Longtime Roundupers will remember that, around this time, The Ashley reported that Leah was spotted outside of a OB-GYN office with her then-friend Amy. After The Ashley reported the sighting, Leah denied The Ashley’s claim and explained online that she was there to support Amy, and denied that she was pregnant herself. (Even though she was, and The Ashley was correct.) As The Ashley told you back in 2012, Leah was even sold that pregnancy story to a tabloid for a hefty amount!
The Ashley’s sources back then told her that Leah’s mom Dawn was instrumental in orchestrating the lie concocted to cover the abortion.
“Dawn told Leah that people will hate her if she has an abortion, but feel bad for her if she had a miscarriage,” The Ashley’s source tells her.
At the time, Jeremy’s friends were teasing him about having knocked up “the girl from ‘Teen Mom'” and were posting about Leah’s pregnancy to Facebook. From what The Ashley has heard, Jeremy had no clue Leah was even considering ending the pregnancy.
In the book, Leah writes about the abortion procedure (she took the abortion pill because she was less than eight weeks along) and how convincing Dawn was when she called Jeremy to break the news of Leah’s “miscarriage.”
“When she told him I was having a miscarriage the way she played the role of concerned mother was so damn convincing even I couldn’t tell she was lying,” she writes. “I remember listening to her talking to Jeremy on the phone and wondering how the hell I had let this happen.”
Leah calls the experience “the worst thing I have ever been through.”
Soon after the abortion, Leah called producers to tell them she lost the baby and a camera crew was sent to film about her “miscarriage.” (You can watch the scene about the “miscarriage” below.)
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The Ashley can reveal that, while the plan was for Leah to never reveal what really happened, she did eventually tell someone who works on the show and, despite the fact that she writes in her book that only her mom, friend and rep knew about the abortion, that’s not the case.
“It was relatively common knowledge among the crew and producers at the time,” a person associated with the show back then tells The Ashley. “Even some of the other cast members knew. I will say, though, the people who went there to film it did not know it [was actually an abortion] at the time they shot those scenes [that ended up on ‘Teen Mom 2.’]
“We found out what really happened later and a lot of people [who worked on the show] were very upset and disgusted about the lie,” the source said.
In her book, Leah writes that she, too, was disgusted with herself.
“I can look bad now without regret, but for the longest time, I wasn’t okay with the choice I had made,” she explained. “It felt so dark because it was hidden. It wasn’t until I was finally able to bring myself to tell Jeremy what had really happened that I started to realize that as long as I was living with the lie it would keep eating away at me.
“I carried the pain and the guilt around with me for years, until I finally got to the point where I could hold myself accountable for my choices without punishing myself for them.”
The Ashley can reveal that, in the time between when Leah told Jeremy the truth and the time she revealed it in her book, Jeremy kept the secret. However, during one of the periods where Leah and Jeremy were not getting along, Jeremy almost revealed Leah’s big secret during a social media rant.
“He said something like ‘if y’all only knew what she really did when we were first dating, what she is really capable of,’ but then caught himself and didn’t tell the abortion story,” the source said.
In an interview with The Sun earlier this week, Jeremy revealed when he learned the truth about Leah’s abortion.
“I heard things about the abortion after the cheating scandal and before we got divorced,” he said. “In my heart I never wanted to question a woman on that. Eventually she did tell me the truth and it was upsetting to hear.”
Jeremy told The Sun that he feels “no need to bring up hurtful times in the past.” He also said he’s proud of the progress Leah has made over the years.
“She’s grown up so much now and I’m proud of the woman she’s become,” he said.
Leah’s book, Hope, Grace & Faith, is set to be released May 5. Click here for more details.
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